Colors of my thoughts

I watched "Mother India " today and after 25 years,it still holds its stand in my heart.I love this movie and to me it is a legend. Iam not a fan of old movies coz I find the acting mechanised rather than being natural.To me when I watch a movie,good acting is when I feel it and would make the remark," yeah! I guess I would have felt or done the same".Now commercial movies are a totally different thing.They are meant for pure entertainment,nothing to think about. What I love about the movie is the attachment the mother has with her boys.How she knows their weakness and strengths,good habits and bad ones but loves them blindly.The fact that she went through all that length to save her younger one from making a mistake but failed.Her yearning for him to come back to her and her promise to make all things better for them.That always hits that crying spot in my heart. I hate that obnoxious remark people make," Jab tum Ma banogi tho tumhe pata chalega ki bache...

My husband put this question forward and slept with this angry face....What do you keep thinking all the time? Now why was he angry,its because hes worried my blood pressure will sky rocket again.I understand his concern but I cant help thinking.He says I dwell too much over things.I was programmed to do so ever since I had brothers and sisters.Before I was carefree,then it was "not you now..they are younger,,let them have it first.You're a grown up now".AFter that it was tension....they look upto you...behave well,behave like a human being..and so on and so forth. Anyways,Im not always tensed when Im in my own dreamy world.I may be thinking,if I had license ,I would be at the beach,listening to my Ipod and enjoying the waves and tides. Or I maybe thinking if I had been to that Ming restaurant, How I would love those fried noodles. Or maybe Im wondering if I had that cash right now,I would buy a bunch of tops to go with my jeans.Or maybe that outfit would make me look...

I watched this movie "The Duchess " starring Keira Knightley and Ralph Fiennes.The movie was very good and I love british movies depicting their past.This is a true story though and a sad one at that. To live in a loveless marriage,to give up love for someone you really dont care a damn for,to live  a life which is basically a facade.I actually felt for the main character who happens to be the Duchess in the movie.She watches her husband fathering children with maids,having affairs,even keeping a mistress in the same house.And his justification being,"I promised you a marriage with everything and In return all I ask for is a male heir and loyalty without fail." She does give him a son after being raped by him,which then gives her this break from keeping up appearances of being loyal to his face.She lives an unhappy life seeking refuge in the laughter of her children.SHe bears him 2 girls and a boy,brings up a maid's daughter as her own as well and lives as f...

Many a times,most of us,live a life risk free.Everything is pre thought for us in advance by our parents or dictated by peers or friends.We always take a risk in an area we know someone else has taken one in a while ago.Many of us dont dive into something head on without giving a second thought.I sometimes wonder how that life must be.Is it exciting? Is it filled with curiosity and thus there is no room for any boredom? You know,the most exciting thing Im gonna do tomorrow and I have no idea how I will do so,I have to fill a 2.5L can with urine.I have to collect and pour in pee all day. The only risk filled thing I did was ,elope with my husband and get married.Oh yeah,I have done some more few things but which hot blooded teenager doesnt. I think as we grow old,we become more and more aware and conscious of each and everything and everyone.We like being safe,take very few chances coz now we have kids and families that we cant run away from anymore.I keep telling my husband ,we s...